To be or not to be?!?!?

Life has always given me my set of surprises, shocks, good times and not so good times. But whatever said and done I’ve never had complains. Never. May be cause I never took my self too seriously or (and) cause I’m living for the journey and not for destination. And that is probably the reason why I always sound like a footloose person.

There is a flip side to it that I have seen over the years. You just end up being so unclear about what you want or rather what you want to do, that is easy for anyone to fill up that vacuum. Though there chances of you living life at the edge and having a surprise result.

But do we have anything to loose here?

I don’t know.

To me, the biggest kick in life is loving what you do and getting the best out of it. Rest just falls in place.

Relationship puffed up…

Relationships- of all the family and friend relationship that we celebrate from time to time and occasion to occasion, I think the most talked about and the most controversial relationship is between a guy and girl who are not related by blood and marriage. In today’s lingo, they are fondly called boyfriend and girlfriend. In modern India there are many who agree to this form of relationship, many who just cover it by saying we’re ‘just friends’ and a lot of them don’t even accept this as a relationship which could purely be  platonic in nature.

At an individual level, my definition for this relationship differed from time to time. Sometimes it just meant to be attracted to someone and secretly admire him, sometimes it meant to be attractive for someone and make them want you, at times it was just about making the “someone” feel special and at times I really wondered if all the efforts or the pain was even worth it.

Like many singles, to judge a relationship, without actually being a part of it was very simple. It din take much to point a friend and say “you are giving him too much of importance”, or to pass a comment, “its just a relationship, not an end to your life,” and this was my all time favorite, “why can’t he love you for what you are?”

And now that I’m officially non-single, I have answers to each of the questions.

 

Irrespective of everything I will never stop believing that

1. Happy endings do exist.

2. Endurance comes with sacrifice.

3. Faith in each other is meant to earned and taken for granted.

4. Apologizing only makes life easier!

5. Love your self as much as you want to be loved.

I shall update more of these as life moves on.

Work and more of it….

Since my childhood, I’ve been stereo typed to be the laziest person around, cause I used to hate working. Honestly, there are times even today that I just wouldn’t want to work. Going to work on a Monday morning is the most difficult task. But irony of all this is that when I actually have no work, I feel sad, frustration of being ‘jobless’ pinches and rides on guilt trip of killing time.

I’m still stuck in my first job. This was something that I chose over other a year and a half back. Meanwhile, though I was attracted with loads of new offers, some good some not so good, I chose not to shift. There were various factors that influenced my decision; plans to shift back home, comfort zone in the place I belong to and a few things alike. But looking back, I think it would have been a wiser decision to shift.

Every time we do something, do we actually know the outcome or the after effects? Or even if we get to know it, will we be able to make a better decision…. I don think so. I think there are no absolutes to Life. They say life is a game- you win some you loose some. I agree (so does everyone!). But more than the winning and loosing bit, I would give a higher credit to what you do and how you do things. I would rather give higher equity to the conviction than concurrence, satisfaction than competition. All-in-all I would weigh the journey more than the destination it self.

I guess my answer is hidden in the lines above. No body knows for sure what future has in store. All you got to do is believe in yourself and do your best. Rest will follow.

Hence all the things that I did/ did not do, are my responsibility, what happens, does not happen will only be cause I drove it in that direction!

Phew! That was a was a deep thought and long article…but I’m not surprised that I wrote it.